Worse than finding out and admitting to yourself that you\’re the kind of romantic person who wants someone for life is being Aquarius anxious to the point of imagining what your life would be like with every dick creature you know!
When that doesn\’t happen in the first ten minutes of the conversation with the guy, it happens as soon as I get home and start doing a kind of compilation of the date, like a review, you know!? He said this, or he did that, analysis of the kiss, the footprint… A confusion of interpretation generated by my rational side and the other very emotional, both very strong, which continue in an attempt to one day reach a consensus, but which, for now, they make a real mess of my feelings, my judgment and even more my intuition, which is always right. Then, if the date was good, I start to imagine what the guy would be like at my family gatherings, how fun our routine together would be and our trips to any place in the world we wanted to go. If the date was bad… well,
But when the date is good ah… you look for the signs to deceive yourself. You search for any word and even in a gesture you manage to find signs to continue creating an image of the person that, most of the time, is completely different from who they are. And then, princesses, and that\’s where the shit starts. That\’s when you can end up falling in love with the charm of a prince you created yourself.
And your intuition doesn\’t matter, it doesn\’t matter the guy\’s imbecile attitudes, it doesn\’t even matter when the guy says in all the letters that he likes to hang out with you and the signs are, in fact, more that you\’re just a roll cool and he\’s not as into it as if he was into you as much as you are into him. No, none of that matters. Because the idealization that you (in my case) made of your life with that person has already blinded all your instincts and it will take a while, maybe a long time, maybe the time of many lost nights thinking about how to act, when you start to feel that you are more interested in him than he is in you. Thinking about what you could do, your part to change the situation. And then again, when you least expect it, you find yourself doing what you most dislike in someone, what you least want in any relationship: playing! And then maybe it\’s not about feelings anymore, but about your ego, your wounded pride, the frustrated expectations you created. There, princess, in addition to the time of an enchantment, it can take the pain of falling from the castle tower that you built and placed your Prince Charming in so that you finally wake up, a little hurt, maybe a lot, without energy, a little tired and even worse, thinking that no relationship is going to work out, because everyone is scared. Because people don\’t want to leave the comfort of their modern individualism and immerse themselves in the unpredictable world of emotions and true relationships. it can take the pain of falling from the tower of the castle you built and placed your Prince Charming in so that you finally wake up, a little hurt, maybe a lot, without energy, a little tired and worse, thinking that no relationship will work out, because everyone is scared. Because people don\’t want to leave the comfort of their modern individualism and immerse themselves in the unpredictable world of emotions and true relationships. it can take the pain of falling from the tower of the castle you built and placed your Prince Charming in so that you finally wake up, a little hurt, maybe a lot, without energy, a little tired and worse, thinking that no relationship will work out, because everyone is scared. Because people don\’t want to leave the comfort of their modern individualism and immerse themselves in the unpredictable world of emotions and true relationships.
But here I am to ask you some questions, which I\’ve been asking myself. Is this really what you wanted, a true relationship? How can we want to have a true relationship with someone we invented ourselves? Could it be that you didn\’t just look at the nice side of the person and fit it perfectly into your fantasies of a life together? How can we believe that we were great and victimize ourselves if at a given moment we stop being ourselves to support that fantasy? If we start thinking too much to make it work?
No, these are not questions to point out our mistakes and blame ourselves because it didn\’t work out. In fact, it worked, because it wasn\’t supposed to happen and we already knew from the beginning, we already intuited it. We just like fantasizing and dreaming so much that we end up taking the long way to the end. These questions make us reflect, so that we can let something flow, so that our intuition can act so that we follow in firm steps, fast or slow, it doesn\’t matter, as long as they are safe, guided by our inner wisdom.
Of course, if you\’re romantic like me, you\’ll always dream a little bit. But as long as we don\’t embark on this dream without listening to that inner voice of ours that talks nonstop, it\’s okay. I\’m my own witness to a wonderful relationship with someone I didn\’t create any expectations of, but with whom I ended up dreaming a little bit.
It\’s possible, princesses, just know what you really want, be patient and don\’t try to fit anyone into the fantasy of what you want.
Just start asking yourself what you really want today!